May 2012
April 2012
This summer was supposed to be ours again....
We had all these plans. I don’t want to see everything go to waste. Why am I still holding on to something that isn’t there?
You fucked up, now fuck off.
I really just need my best friend.
But he’s not himself anymore.
I've been getting drunk to forget about you.
Then when i wake up in the morning, you’re still on my mind.
Having you hold me is what I needed.
I needed you. You came to save me.
Then you left again.
I miss feeling safe with you.
Please come home and let me feel safe again.
This isn’t my home anymore, unless you’re here.
I can’t do this.
My heart hurts again.
I don’t know why.
I wish I didn’t want him to stay.
Or want him to be around me.
And he should be the one to make my heart ache go away.
Not the one causing it.
Ah, fuck.
I want my boyfriend back, my best friend back.
The guy I’m in love with back.
I fucked up last night...
Haha. And this morning.
